Now in this autumn season
Of my ordinary life
I am still alone on this Earth
No special one to be my wife.
The leaves are changing colors
From green to orange to red
Each night I wake in the middle
With no soothing comfort in my bed.
Cathartic tears dampen my pillow
Lifelong fears rage against my soul
I will sleep no more this shadowed night
Of this, yes I know, I know.
The seasons pass you by so quickly
They come and go as sneezes in time
Spring, summer, and now autumn fall
Too few moments of the desired sublime.
The approach of winter lies in wait
In the nearing fear of just up ahead
It won’t be long now, just an eye blink away
It has escaped the locked room in my head.
Where is my special one to make my soul complete
Where is she, is she already passed and gone away
Or is she still out there somewhere
Waiting like me for a better day, a better day.
Is it all too late, I wonder as I wander
If this path of mine has a reason or a rhyme
I close my eyes and shiver at the mortal realization
Of my greatest fear, the narrowing of allotted time.